‘I don’t remember going back to class or putting my clothes on. I just remember feeling like it was all my fault.’
Greta grew up in a large family in regional Victoria during the 1960s, and attended an Anglican private school.
She was a quiet achiever who loved the performing arts and although she liked most teachers, she was wary of Mr Logan, the head of the junior school. He dressed oddly and often stared at students, and Greta’s sister had told her to be careful of him.
‘He had a reputation for being sadistic and people were scared of him. He was someone who was odd, even the kids realised … I remember him hitting someone on the back for playing the piano at lunch time. He [always] looked through the window during class.’
Greta described him as a nasty bully. She remembers him calling students into his office and they’d later emerge crying, with marks on the backs of their legs.
In the early 1970s when she was seven, Greta wet her pants. It had happened a few times before and her class teacher, Mrs Daniel, had always helped clean her up.
One day, Greta was called out of class by Mr Logan. She doesn’t think she had wet her pants that time, but Mr Logan took off her clothes and sponged her, paying ‘a lot more attention’ to her genitals. She was then sent back to class.
She avoided him afterwards but believes the incident affected her deeply. She remembers becoming more shy, especially around adult males, and fearing attention from her teachers.
The abuse also made her feel dirty and unlovable. She couldn’t tell anyone about what had happened because she didn’t have the words for it.
‘I couldn’t speak, I was too scared. I just didn’t want people to look at me or speak to me.’
Greta never forgot what he’d done but she tried to put it behind her and not think about it. When she was in her 30s, she sought out a counsellor to help with relationship issues, and during this process disclosed the abuse.
It was some time before Greta could acknowledge that it wasn’t her fault.
After disclosing to her counsellor, Greta told her husband and her children. She also told her parents and was surprised to her father knew of what had happened, and had never mentioned it. She was upset that he didn’t think it serious enough to make any kind of report about Logan.
‘[My father] was the kind of person that wouldn’t have rocked the boat and wouldn’t have said anything. I think people have to say things … If you see something, say something.’
In the late 2000s, Greta reported Logan to the police. She believes the police have interviewed him and that he denied the incident. She doesn’t think the matter will proceed any further.